My partner is a hand therapist and talks a lot about how much more pain his patients seem to be feeling. As though all their emotional and spritual pain is getting channeled through their physical injury. The layers of pain are almost too much for some, especially initially. But, the flip side is that he sees people working through physical recoveries and reclaiming hope that things can improve. It sounds like you're on that journey. Best of luck in your continued physical, emotional, and spiritual recovery!